Unchartered Territory. Past, present, future.

Past, Present, Future. Past, Present, Future.  The thoughts and self reflections of how we got here and where we are headed. Is it bright? Is it meek? Is it cold? Is it brief? Is it warm? Is it shallow? Will it be hard to breathe? Will we triumph? Love, compassion, empathy, joy; will the sentiments which make our faces and soul smile, ultimately triumph. The reflection of leaving the unwanted, the emcompassing feelings which hinder our purpose be addressed and archived?, only to be deciphered by what we leave behind. 

The moments which led to this chapter have been brought into light. I have been able to have empathy for the immigrant child who without much understanding left her home and loved ones behind. Loving, meaningful relationships severed by distance and time. Left to mourn the loss of the loved ones who transitioned past the physical without participating in the ceremonial practices that help us grieve.  I never gave the thought of the impact this had much consideration. Yet here I am, wondering, reflecting how the journey of  being an immigrant affected the child I outgrew, or did I? Healing, learning, growing, trying to be resilient and in the process grown tired. Entering a new experience, letting it all out, exposing my inner thoughts without a care of the opinions which may follow. For healing is singulary, the onus is on us. Blame takes away accountability. Adulting can be challenging but beautiful at the same time. Knowing we have the power to turn things around, to change patterns, destroy cycles, consolitdate past, present, future and become whole.

Past, present, future, learning that it is okay to not bottle it up inside. Though the thought of vulnerability is scary and unchartered territory I am to keep trying, keep fighting for my soul's evolution. Aiming to do better, be better; sister, daughter, aunt, friend, lover. That's the infinite goal, to do our best, gain understanding and then do better. 

Past, present, future. I hope you stay tuned in, the present feels challenged by my past, but on a soul level the future vision has always been bright. 

P.